Beetle Mercy

by Kat Beyer

My mother was Suzanne Miller, the woman who used to win prizes for her vegetables at our county fair every single year, even the years she didn’t enter.

“How do you do that?” Asked Maureen next door. “It must be witchcraft.”

Of course this was true. But if every magic has a signature, my mother’s was in loopy, if exact, handwriting, the kind of handwriting that tells the reader that here is a person who used to put hearts instead of dots over her “i’s.”

She used to turn beetles into birds for the day, then turn them back in the evening. When we saw her doing it she would say to us, “I think they need a change of scene.”

“Suzanne,” our father would say, and somehow fit whole ranges of reproach and love and weariness and desire into her name, notes which I can only hear now, when I’m grown up, and remember the exact sound of his voice.

When they took her up to the hospital and we followed in the car, our father saying softly, “Suzanne,” to himself and the wheel every now and then, we knew something would happen, even if we only felt the knowledge under a blanket of tears.

When we saw her sitting up in the the hospital bed we knew but we didn’t want to know. Our father looked at her and took her hand, and she said, “not long now,” terribly sad for his sake, and he said, “I know.” She took us each in her arms and tried hard to squeeze the breath out of us the way she used to when we came home from long trips, but she was already too weak. And she kissed our father the same way he said her name.

“Suzanne,” he said once more.

“A change of scene,” she said seriously, and then she wasn’t there. I guess we must’ve all blinked at once, not to see her go. The sheets settled back where she’d been.

When we got home the house finches over the door had finished building their nest, and my brother crawled out on the roof and counted three eggs.

“One of them will be her,” he said, very sure.

Secret-Runner

by Luc Reid

You know that you are related to the Trians who own you, though your body is much smaller and your three legs longer in proportion. But you are a Secret-Runner, and your kind, as far as you know, is always property.

You are on a strange planet, you’re told: Earth, the human planet, but you never see anything except Secret-Runner nests and the long, narrow, smooth tunnels bored beneath the ground from one Trian habitat to another. The tunnels are narrow ovals in cross-section, tilted to one side, a perfect shape for you as long as you are moving at top speed, your three legs out like spokes, spinning from one foot to the next, moving so rapidly that the world is a blur. But if you are tired, or simply want to stop for a moment to remember who you are, then the tunnel is cramped and uncomfortable: you can’t stand on all three legs, you’re forced to lean, and you feel you can hardly breathe. Better to keep moving and not think.

Because you can see nothing when you spin, you’re taken by surprise today when the walls of the tunnel are no longer there, when you’re tumbling helplessly through space. You crash into a wall of dirt and rocks, and pebbles rain down on you.

“Got it!” says a human, the first one you have heard with your own membranes, and you try to look up, but the light is blinding and painful. You’re thrown into a cage, and the cage is covered.

You know why they’ve broken into a tunnel and taken you, because you have only one purpose. The long, complicated message-secret you were given this morning, which one of your Trian owners throbbed to you over nearly an hour–that’s what they want. They must know that you have been conditioned, brought up, even bred for secrecy, so they must think they have some power that will break your conditioning. You are frightened to imagine what it might be.

The cover slips, and you see it is now less bright outside. Thousands and thousands of pinpricks of light gleam far above you in a soft, black sky. You have never seen anything farther off than a few dozen meters. Now you are seeing what you know must be stars, they are light years away.

Do you wish you had never been captured, now?