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Zero
Wednesday, June 9th, 2010
“Three …” she said, staring out the window. We could hear the first distant cracking noises. It was going to hit hard.
“I feel pretty calm,” I said, which immediately made me feel jittery. Ann nodded agreement, but wrapped her arms around herself as though she were cold. I wanted to get up and hold her, but I was afraid to move, as though sitting completely still was somehow going to keep me–or us–safe.
“Two …” Ann said. The floor began to vibrate very faintly, and then the walls, and then the air. Everything seemed to be humming, a high-pitched, brain-penetrating sound.
What do you do in the last seconds? Do you prepare yourself, relax, try to be at one with the universe? Do you scream at the sky and say No, no, no! just to show that you aren’t going willingly? Do you cry? And in that last breath of time do you celebrate everything you’ve done, or let yourself admit that it hasn’t made any difference? But then, if you celebrate in your last moment, maybe that’s the–
“One …”
The whole room began to shake, and a washed-out, violet light grew outside the windows, making Ann and the furniture and the the motes of dust trembling stuck in the air all look flat and sharp. I finally came to myself and realized I was pity partying through my last moment when the one person who meant the most to me in the world was only steps away. I lurched out of the chair and reached for her, thinking maybe it was somehow not too late.
She turned toward me, and her eyes went wide. She opened her mouth to speak, but she only got as far as “I …”
Then it hit.
The Ancient Power of String
Tuesday, June 8th, 2010
Every day I watch the people on the bus over the top of my math book. I’ve given them names. There’s Hate Boy, with his swastika earring, who moves his seat anytime anybody who looks slightly black or Jewish or Asian or gay or Hispanic or interesting sits near him. He doesn’t mind Talking Guy, though, who mutters and smells.
There’s Beautiful, who is. He’s in a band. He dressed up as Barbie for Halloween, and looked awesome. Hate Boy never sat near him again.
There’s Knitting Lady. Once Hate Boy asked her in his tough-tough voice, “Could you stop? The clicking is driving me nuts.” She said kindly, “No, dear.”
Hate Boy is running out of seats on the bus.
People always sit down next to Knitting Lady; she feels like that. When I read A Tale of Two Cities and got freaked out by Madame Defarge, Knitting Lady called me over and said, “Come sit by me. You don’t anymore. The needles bug you?”
Then she saw the book and smiled.
I sat down next to her again.
She said, “Those aren’t the only kinds of messages people knit, you know. It’s been used for lots of codes over the centuries.
“String is one of the most important human inventions. Fire was a big deal, sure. But string! New ways of carrying things—new weapons—even clothes for the first time. We began to knot it, knit it, weave it…messages, accounts, all manner of things.”
While she talked I thought the sunlight from the dirty window faded for a minute and fire lit her face.
“You can also use it to knit things together,” she added. She looked at Hate Boy when she said it.
A week later a white girl with long dredlocks and a diamond in her nose got on the bus.
Hate Boy made fun of Dred Girl’s hair, then her nose piercing. She just looked at him and shrugged.
I got the flu a month ago; when I came back Hate Boy wasn’t around. An old Asian lady hobbled onto the bus and the hot guy sitting next to Dred Girl gave up his seat for her.
“I always think of you as Math Girl,” he smiled down at me in a tough-tough voice. “Where ya been?”
His hair was grown out, his swastika was gone. Knitting Lady saw me staring and winked.